I'm sinking and it's going to be a disaster like Titanic.

When the one thing that led you to almost happiness begins starting to make you feel miserable, what do you do? Coming up here and doing other work used to make me so happy, because I could escape for a while.... but now, with the things here taunting me and calling  me unsuccessful, what is there to do?


I'm lost.
I'm scared.
I don't know how to ask for help.
I'm butchered and abused and there's no way for me to stop it.

Fail! Fail! Fail!

Why is it that the universe seems to want to punish people? I feel like such a failure at the moment. I guess that is all I'll ever be.... A failure. FTW.