I always feel so hated.

It always happens.
Hey! The world likes you now! You can try to be happy!

Then something comes along and ruins it.

I had everything planned for next year. What I was going to do, where I was going to go.
And now it's all ruined from one cruel twist of crooked fate.

There's no way I can achieve all that I want to, and the only reason is spawning from a single human being.

I'm hated, and there is nothing that I can do besides stand there and let myself be tarnished.

I try not to cut. I really do. But it is days like this when I feel like I just can't go on. When I cut it shows me just an ounce of the pain I would give people if I did commit suicide. I don't wish any of that pain on them. Yet, here I am, remaining miserable.I don't know what to do. I try to figure out solutions: quit reading a certain kind of book, stop hanging out with that one person, take a day off from school, write about it more.... Nothing ever helps. Help. I'm lost in a sea of despair and there is no ship around to rescue me.

Stars are so interesting. Basically, they can float up in the sky looking all small and free - but really, take a better look. They are huge balls of flame the will eventually destroy themselves, maybe implode and take other stars or planets with it. They look so beautiful, but up close they are dangerous and ugly.... like Humanity.